Anonymous asked: dear ex

I’m so upset I answered this hella long ago but tumblr fucked up and didn’t post it…..but maybe that was a sign to not post it?……haha. 

Well….

Dear you, 

Once upon a time I was in maaaad love with you…like angry, mad, love because I hated you (it was a time of very confusing emotions). I would breathe out hot fire due to your ignorance but also wanted nothing more than to take every single bit of you in and cradle the moments we had. You were once tangled in every cell and fiber of my being. There was no running my fingers through the knots of chaos because quite frankly, I wanted you and the madness. I simply wanted to love you for the rest of our lives. I will never understand why you chose to manipulate something as genuine as what I had to offer.

For a long time your shadow crept up from behind and when my guard was down, your whispers of my haunting flaws filled a quiet room. I felt like I myself was crazy, begging for your presence as if you were the answer to my sanity. You disregarded my passion for you and mistook my loyalty as a sign of weakness.

I know I had my faults but I was never the bad guy. I could go on forever but this was such a long time ago and such a waste of time that i’m starting to regret typing this shit. 

I’ll stop here. But thank you for the time that we did share because it was the greatest lesson learned.