January 2009
8 posts
Goodbye 08'
So i’ve decided to write a blog for the last day of 08. My latest one was an emotional blog and im not starting this new year emotional, im too happy right now.
SO my year of 08 right? I’ll wrap up my year of 08’ for you. This year as been my roughest/happiest. I’ve lost a love, gained a love, and gained a couple more friends. I’ve laughed so hard that I...
December 2008
11 posts
Usual
I hate hate hate haaaaate mornings.
Please go away thoughts, you seriously do more than depress me.
Basking in Tears
What do I want for Christmas?
What I want is far more valuable than any man made material out there. As priceless as hearing a new borns first laugh.
After finding out that it would be best if I didn’t go I broke down at Debbies house seriously crying my eyes out. I knew it was best, I was just too excited trying to ignore reality. I was really exctied, it was the only thing I thought...
Breaking down
Jill: ...but there's always room to make things better
Jack: Definitely no room for that.
How am I?
Hm, I could answer this in many ways. There’s the simple “Oh, i’m good. Thanks for asking” or I could be bitter and just say fuck you. But for you, and only you, i’ll elaborate.
I’m miserable. Right when I woke up this morning, tears ran down my cheek. I closed my eyes to try and ignore how i felt but i just ended up seeing what I felt. I saw the...
Wreckless
I hate every T word that ends with a Y.
I’m so unhappy. You’d think i’d be over it. Over the insults, the put downs, the negativety, and the feeling of being too insecure. But I want it all back.
There’s someone who’s too close to perfect and i don’t want to accept it. I’m trying to find something wrong but I just can’t. I don’t want...
Move on
I really am too much in love. Hm, I wish I wasn’t anymore.
And I think i’m just doing it just because I can, just so I know that i’m capable of moving on, but i’m not sure if I want to. I’ll list some pros and cons after this weekend.
You know why I can’t write.
Because I think of nonsense.
Open wounds
My head knows right from wrong but for the past 4 months i’ve been listening to my heart. Thing about that is, my heart fails me more than my head. I unconsciously repress reality so I won’t have to face the truth, because the truth hasn’t been too kind nowadays. But i’ve never tried so hard for anything, which is why I probably pick my heart over my head. Now I may be...
It was bittersweet and now im broken.
Ok, just for Joyce.
Hm, what I hope to see in the future;
Before I settle down..
I see myself all over the place. I don’twant no fancy caaaarr just give me a little Honda Accord. Ahah. But before I settle down since this doesn’t necesarrily have to come true right? But anyways, i’ll be dating Shia Labeouf because I just know it. It won’t be a long-term relationship...